Nurul Jannah Hamidon

0535 am 17/11/16 Stress like crazy over something. OLC is part of it. And maybe hormonal imbalance might be the cause of it. Reminiscing the past has pro and cons. At least I knew that we're not meant to be together. Easy to say 'past is past' to myself. Easy to control the body and brain but hard to instruct the heart to act the same way. People said it is a matter of time. It's not a matter of time for me. Once you feel that sad feeling, you'll live with it forever. Why? Because you still have hope. That hope and expectation kill you. I don't know the exact way to get rid of it. Just pray for Allah guidance. What I'm thinking right now, Allah loves you no matter what happen. I still have beautiful family who love me and always supporting me. I have best friend who are alway there for me. I will get degree in medical in less than one year. Title DR will be in front of my name after I graduate. I will become a doctor and can give all my best to help ...

Rain Rain Rain.  The weather was gloomy this month. Same goes to my heart. I was lacking in everything. My self confidence, motivation, spiritual and love ( except love from Allah and family). Counting down how many days till pro exam part 1 made me restless but the thought of giving up from exam also came into my mind simultaneously.  Before this I'm strong enough to fight everything including heartbroken things but not for this year. My final year as a medical student. I was so fragile lately. Even slight stress can made my mood straight forward became under the weather. I felt demotivated and not study so hard. I tend to scroll everything in the Instagram, Tweeter and Facebook instead of studying. I tend to watch movies instead of counting how many days till pro exam or counting how many important topics that I already covered or counting how many questions that I already done throughout this final year.  Thinking about it made me realise something. I think ...

I knew something and I love this song by Indah Ruhaila SEMUA UNTUK CINTA Benar cerita cinta Tiadakan penghujungnya Kekal ia selamanya Benar cerita kita semua seakan sama cuma babak yang berbeza Jujur aku Ikhlas bila Mencintaimu Seadanya Lumpuh masa Masa kau aku bersama Biar terhenti semua Hanya untuk cinta. Oh..Dan Ku tak akan putus asa Selagi diri bernyawa Hanya untuk cinta Semua untuk cintanya Semua untuk cintanya Oh.. Semua untuk cinta Biar tiada hujungnya Biar selamanya Semua untuk cinta Semua untuk cinta Semua untuk cintanya Lumpuh masa Masa kau aku bersama Biar terhenti semua Hanya untuk cinta Oh..Dan Ku tak akan putus asa Selagi diri bernyawa Hanya untuk cinta Semua Hanya untuk cinta xoxo jannahamidon

Today is Friday but my mood ke laut dah. I can't focus to study anymore. Tomorrow is going to be 100 days more for pro exam 1. I got the nerves already. I really stress right now. Many things have to remember and understand. Why must exam exist in this world? Can I be a doctor without going through all these exam things?? I listed all the posting/subjects that I have to cover for pro exam 1. Internal medicine 2. Paediatric 3. Orthopaedic 4. Obstetric and gynaecology 5. Surgery 6. Emergency Medicine and Psychiatry I cry a river guys I'm not kidding. One of my lecturers told us final year is like a marathon. You already tired and easily to give up when it comes to the word 'final'. Yes, that is what I feel right now. Can I be a housewife instead of doctor??? Just lepak goyang kaki and take care of children HAHAHA. Daydreaming is my hobby all the time. Okay get back to reality Jannah. Nothing easy in this world. Breath in and out and let's face this exam on...