Nurul Jannah Hamidon

After so long, my mood to blog something here is coming HAHA. Actually I have a lot of things to tell here but typical me always doing something following the mood. My aim to create a blog is for me to reminiscing the past when I got older bahahaha. Nothing more than that. Since I can't sleep tonight, let's have a cup of coffee and may stay up a bit late for today since exam is coming, 58 days more to go, and I feel like fainting huarggh. I want to share my journey as a final year medical student. Like I said in my previous post (I can't remember which post actually), medicine is like a marathon, you'll feel slightly demotivated and less passion at the end of the running because you already tired and you just want to give up. So do I. A month ago was a critical month for me. I feel demotivated, ungrateful, less spirit and lazy. I asked myself, 'can I give up?' Seriously I was soooo blur in everything. I felt less confident with myself, I don't know how t

0535 am 17/11/16 Stress like crazy over something. OLC is part of it. And maybe hormonal imbalance might be the cause of it. Reminiscing the past has pro and cons. At least I knew that we're not meant to be together. Easy to say 'past is past' to myself. Easy to control the body and brain but hard to instruct the heart to act the same way. People said it is a matter of time. It's not a matter of time for me. Once you feel that sad feeling, you'll live with it forever. Why? Because you still have hope. That hope and expectation kill you. I don't know the exact way to get rid of it. Just pray for Allah guidance. What I'm thinking right now, Allah loves you no matter what happen. I still have beautiful family who love me and always supporting me. I have best friend who are alway there for me. I will get degree in medical in less than one year. Title DR will be in front of my name after I graduate. I will become a doctor and can give all my best to help

Rain Rain Rain.  The weather was gloomy this month. Same goes to my heart. I was lacking in everything. My self confidence, motivation, spiritual and love ( except love from Allah and family). Counting down how many days till pro exam part 1 made me restless but the thought of giving up from exam also came into my mind simultaneously.  Before this I'm strong enough to fight everything including heartbroken things but not for this year. My final year as a medical student. I was so fragile lately. Even slight stress can made my mood straight forward became under the weather. I felt demotivated and not study so hard. I tend to scroll everything in the Instagram, Tweeter and Facebook instead of studying. I tend to watch movies instead of counting how many days till pro exam or counting how many important topics that I already covered or counting how many questions that I already done throughout this final year.  Thinking about it made me realise something. I think if we want

I knew something and I love this song by Indah Ruhaila SEMUA UNTUK CINTA Benar cerita cinta Tiadakan penghujungnya Kekal ia selamanya Benar cerita kita semua seakan sama cuma babak yang berbeza Jujur aku Ikhlas bila Mencintaimu Seadanya Lumpuh masa Masa kau aku bersama Biar terhenti semua Hanya untuk cinta. Oh..Dan Ku tak akan putus asa Selagi diri bernyawa Hanya untuk cinta Semua untuk cintanya Semua untuk cintanya Oh.. Semua untuk cinta Biar tiada hujungnya Biar selamanya Semua untuk cinta Semua untuk cinta Semua untuk cintanya Lumpuh masa Masa kau aku bersama Biar terhenti semua Hanya untuk cinta Oh..Dan Ku tak akan putus asa Selagi diri bernyawa Hanya untuk cinta Semua Hanya untuk cinta xoxo jannahamidon

Today is Friday but my mood ke laut dah. I can't focus to study anymore. Tomorrow is going to be 100 days more for pro exam 1. I got the nerves already. I really stress right now. Many things have to remember and understand. Why must exam exist in this world? Can I be a doctor without going through all these exam things?? I listed all the posting/subjects that I have to cover for pro exam 1. Internal medicine 2. Paediatric 3. Orthopaedic 4. Obstetric and gynaecology 5. Surgery 6. Emergency Medicine and Psychiatry I cry a river guys I'm not kidding. One of my lecturers told us final year is like a marathon. You already tired and easily to give up when it comes to the word 'final'. Yes, that is what I feel right now. Can I be a housewife instead of doctor??? Just lepak goyang kaki and take care of children HAHAHA. Daydreaming is my hobby all the time. Okay get back to reality Jannah. Nothing easy in this world. Breath in and out and let's face this exam on

This is my first time commenting or responding to something viral in Fb. I'm not type of person who will bother myself with something useless like this. It's wasting my time and I don't know whether the information is right or wrong. But this post from this want-to-show off-IPTA-student really trigger to speak out something from my mouth. I tried to control my comments because I have a lot of friends who studied medical in IPTA. Honestly, I felt sad back then when I failed the requirement to take medicine at IPTA. Everyone has their own reason and same goes to our rezeki and faith. Do you think we, IPTS students are very easy to pass the exam?? We have to study too, struggle too, stay up too, just like you, just like everyone else that has the title 'student'. Sometimes we have to spend more money compared to you IPTA students. We have to drive our own car ( sometimes carpool), if we want to go to the teaching Hospital. We don't have our specific teaching ho

I can't sleep tonight. Suddenly I miss my father so much. I don't know why I don't feel stress about the upcoming pro exam in 4 months from now. I fell lack of motivation and always low in mood, not study hard and not even start doing my study group tasks. As compared to my pro exam during second year, I felt more motivated at that time. I remembered when my life turned upside down because of 4 letters called L.O.V.E. Exactly 3 years ago (I think so. Seriously I had difficulty to remember dates), I went through a relationship problem like other girls. (maybe not all) Like 5 or 6 months before my pro exam. I frustrated, cried a lot, regret, and lack of motivation to study. Until one day, I remembered ayah asked me personally and that time ibu went to the bank. It was so random. He asked me about that 'problem'. He was curious because at first I only told my mother about what happen. Sure ibu told ayah after that. I was like trying to be cool. I want to let him

 I know I will be biased but I really adore cool guys. Every people have their own definition of handsome or cool. For me??? 1. Surgeon: I really admire a surgeon. They are such a cool guy and good looking especially in their OT attire ( or we called it scrub). Most of them don't like to scold people, relax, cool, charismatic, smart and handsome.  2. Engineer: I described them, engineer=machine. HAHA. Sometime they are heartless maybe because of their coolness. (husnuzhon0 bahaha. No lahh. I like them because  some of them still have an old version of phone (Nokia). But for sure la they have another phone (android or Apple). I know it's a bit funny and weird reason. But this is me haha. If you think you own that phone even though you're not engineer, you're cool man!! Bravo.. Enough for the guy. Next move to the girls. For me only 2 girls catching my eyes because of their coolness. 1. Lisa Surihani: I adore her since school. I have to admit it that if I g

Hello my blog!!! I really miss you. I do have time to update but I choose not to because I'm so lazy. So, tonight my mood is good and me is happy hehe. Recently, something bad happen during my posting. One of my friend has been scolded by someone. Let's call it Mr P. I think my friend doesn't do anything wrong to him, just following his rounds and suddenly all those 'kind' words coming out from his mouth. 'Bloody hell' 'Bullshit' 'Babi' (I hate this the most) Personally, I'm type of person who really really hate these words! But sometimes we can't judge people by these so, I just ignore it as long as me myself doesn't do the same as them. There are so many challenges in medical fields. Once you choose it, you have to bear with those type of person who loveeeeee to use these words. Anddd it is normal for you to get scolded because of your mistake. After 4 years in medical school, I witness everything and I admit it I hav

4 alphabets that can describe many things. I was in the middle of paediatrics posting now. I'm so excited because for me this posting is not boring at all. Kids are so adorable and they do not know how to lie. Adults are tend to lie honestly speaking. There are so many social issues happen to child and of course I can't tell here because of patient confidentiality. I don't know why people tend to talk about others in the social media. It's not good because maybe we do not know the exact story. Try to be considerate and just think if you were in their shoes. We can't strain ourselves from gossips. We tend to talk about other people bla bla especially during hanging out with our kind of gossip girls (not only girls, boys too). We have to minimize our judgement towards that story. What's your feeling when other people talking bad about you instead of knowing the truth behind it? You will feel sad and less confident I'm sure but you have to be strong. (Don

Cooking time with ibu be like everything have to be perfect. The length must be equal and not too thick! Whenever I asked her why this and why that, she will say your cooking technique resemble your attitude. If all the veges look too thick, it means that 'perempuan tu kasar'. Okay la made sense jugak la. haha. I'm not feeling stress anymore because I had been trained since 13 years old. I remembered my first time entering the kitchen, ibu asked me to peel off onion which is soooo manyyyyy. My eyes  teared up sabar jela time tu haha. I love cooking maybe inherited from my mother but still a lot to be improved. A long way to go. Is it compulsory if all women out there have cooking skills?? for my personal opinion it's not necessary at all. I mean not to be too perfect because we are not live in the era which all women are staying in the house and do all the house chores. We got other responsibilities too. We have work and family. We have to be balanced. For me, Isl

Despite of unfinished works (PMDs, PMS, log book), I'm here sitting in front of the laptop updating my blog! Believe it or not I'm in Perak man!! Home sweet home!! I'm soooo happy. This is the place which no one will judge me if I want to eat rice at 12 o'clock in the morning okay! (I'm just kidding). Home is where the heart is. I'm so happy to be with my family no matter what. Although we are not on the phone everyday, but we still keep in touch in our own ways. I was so stress lately because I started with IM posting which was the toughest one for me even though I really love IM during my 3rd year. As usual expectation really killed my mood. So just keep calm and try to solve the problem by yourself, don't even dare to run from something, faces it patiently. The most interesting is I lost 3 kg because of stress plus level 5 Apartment with no lift! (sigh). But don't be too excited because I just weighed this morning and I gained 1 kg haha 2 days sta

Finally this week will end soon. IM posting is not kidding. It's soooooooo hectic and most classes started after 5 PM. I have two more weeks for this posting and until now I feel like I learnt nothing. It's so bad and I have to be more productive and need a motivation right now. Tomorrow no class only ward round which I will use that time to do PMD (7 PMDs in a month! crazy). I also have 'imbalance-hormone-syndrome' which I easily feel stress and sad. What you guys do when you're in bad mood and sometimes crying without a reason?? For me, I just cry hahaha..but of course in a room before sleep, no one can see and woke up with 'Panda and swollen eyes' next morning for sure. People can't see the Panda eyes because I'm wearing specs!! So wear your specs okay haha.. Sometimes we have to remind ourselves that we are worthy. No matter what people said about us, let them be. Everybody is not perfect. Maybe some of them think they're perfect but it

Such a beautiful morning here with the bird chirping around and me myself still lying in the bed with the laptop on to update my blog. I'm finally a final year student. I still can't believe it but yes this is the facts Jannah, YOU HAVE TO CHANGE AND BE BETTER. No more lazy lazy huhu and learning not just for the sake of exam because in real life as a doctor, your patient is not an exam subject!! Okay done with my short story about that final year things. Now, I'm here feeling sad because I can't attend my friend's wedding. She's not my closed friends but this is the right time to meet and make a mini reunion for my batch. I'm proud to be Taayah's girl. I missed the moment when all of us still in our school time. Misunderstanding and fighting are normal but now no more because we already grown up and 13 of us (if i'm not mistaken) already married. When we talk about marriage, this is the second most stressful things for a girl in her nearly mid-t

It's a bit shame to tell that I'm a new fan of Grey's Anatomy but I don't care as long as the stories are interesting and good. I admire Izzie Stevan instead of Meredith more but it only last untill season 4 only. Season 5,6 and 7, I started to love Meredith no matter what. To keep the story short, Izzie Stevan frustrated because her fiance died during season 3 if i'm not mistaken. She baked many fluffy muffins. Andd before this I had this kind of perception towards certain people. I always feel that women will look beautiful if there are studying TESL and good in baking. So, I started to bake a vanilla muffin. First trial not so okayy because I have to beat the eggs and sugar until 'kembang' and 'berbuih putih'. Not enough beating! wrong technique! Second trial was better than before. The muffin looked fluffy in the picture only but actually keras and crunchy on the outside, fluffy inside. huhhh wrong again! Third trial I baked chocolate muffin,

My final year will start in less than a week soon. I totally not ready!! Just finish sorting out my planner but still not complete because I don't have the timetable yet. I only know that I'll starts with internal medicine first which is 'everything under the sun'. It's okay lahh belajar banyak and susah dulu. My final preparation?? Telling the truth I'm not study anything during this holiday. I just eat, sleep, eat, sleep haha. No lahh I'm so happy because this holiday I always hang out with my family and friends. A lot of wedding to attend, Engagement ceremony, anddd gossiping with my schoolmates. They already finish their degree and I'm here not finish finish with studyyyyy je. This is the perk of being a doctor. You chose that career Jannah go with it and work hard! Maybe I have to study until I becomes a mother or the worst case scenario, until becomes a grandmother! (I hope I can get married A.S.A.P bahahahaha). I also started to have a new h

I do not blog anything for so long. As usual I wanted to blog anything happen in my life but it turned out to be something else. I forgot, tired and busy. Okay guys I'm gonna start my new sem for less than a month but I'm still doing nothing. No preparation at all. So bad! bad girl Jannah you're lazy! I felt so happy for this holiday since majority of my friends already finished their degree and internship. So, I had a chance to hang out with them before and after raya. Andddd congrates to my friend who got married last week. Actually I have friend who already blessed with 2 children. I iz insecure!! haha no lahh as I said to myself and all people who asked a question like "Jannah bila pulak?" THE TIME WILL COME. (please read this in slow tone i'm not gonna reply rudely like all posted in our social media right now). It's not good okay. Please be polite like our culture taught us. Mind our roots. Unfortunately after finish with the happy part, my EBM r

Alhamdulillah, my report already submitted to the supervisor and my logbook for elective had been postage to the campus because I'm very lazy to drive to Cyberjaya. (Kalau tak puasa takpe). Okay kidding no no no we have to be patient especially in Ramadhan. We have to strain ourselves from eating and drinking. Although I don't know for this Ramadhan I felt tired easily and always thirsty all the time maybe because of hot weather here in Perak. Regarding my elective, I felt grateful because my elective went smooth and didn't have any problems. Maybe Ipoh was general hospital so the ward was very busy and I only learnt from observation and clerking patient by my own. But I was happy at the clinic because I learnt many things there. I don't know why this hospital had many rare diseases and that was my first time seeing an adolescent with Marfan syndrome. I was so excited and I felt sorry to the patient. I said sorry after that don't worry okay hehe. (i'm not a ba

Being a doctor is not something as easy as people talk. Yes doctor is a noble profession but it is not to the extend that you have to be proud of it. It's about saving a life. It doesn't matter you graduate from public or private university because at the end you will become someone who gonna save other people life. The journey to become a doctor also full of many obstacles especially emotionally and mentally. When all your friends already celebrating their graduation day and all the wedding invitation keep coming to you, that is the time you will feel down. That is the time you have to find your strength especially your family and friends. We have to proud to be a muslim because we have the almighty Allah. When we feel down, we will go back to our Creator. Allah knows everything. Lastly, you have to ignore all the negative talk that you heard from everyone. It's cliche people will talk: 'You're a doctor?for sure you don't have time to find a future husband&

I'm not a patient person when it comes to skincare. Unfortunately I also have skin problem which is really annoying for me to choose the best skincare for my skin. I tried many things and the result was unsatisfactory. Untill I found kaylena beauty by Leuniey Natasha and this skincare change my life cewah.. It contain rosehip oil which is very suitable and made my skin look better. But the effects are slow and depends on our hormone and skin type. I like the slow effect and the most important is natural skincare. I used it almost a year and my skin feel better and better and then I started to change to another skincare. (tula menggatal tukar2 mentang2 dah okay). The result was terrible. The acne came back. Well done! So I decided to try a korean skincare (let it be secret) but nothing change. frust iols! anddddddd...... Because of that today I bought a new set of kaylena beauty including its mask. Alhamdulillah there was COD in Ipoh, so no need to wait for the postage. so, th

I personally don't have specific tudung which I love the most. As long as i'm comfortable, I'll go with it. Bawal or shawl? The pros and cons. For me, bawal scarf always win in all aspect. Orang melayu kata tak luntur ditelan zaman. (cewahhh tapi BM Iols masa SPM tak dapat A+ pun). I still have tudung bawal with the manik and sulam one. It's so expensive and sayang nak buang and it contains classic elements too which I like to keep it and let the other generation know the trend in our tradition. I often wear it because it's so jarang and pendek. For now, I really love aidijuma bawal scarf design. I really adore datin norjuma and that's why I started buying the first batch of aidijuma punya collection masa tu. Kebetulan aidijuma memang dekat je dengan rumah. Kalau dulu aidijuma boleh kata agak mahal sebab semuanya range harga RM 30-RM 60 for black label. And then dorang start keluarkan different label and different prices. Ada green label, blue label and whit

Alhamdulillah for all that happen to me during this sem. Whether it was good or bad I'll accept it anyways. Have faith in Allah. It was easy to say it but hard to practice it and we have to try harder. I got many lessons that I learnt throughout this sem. For me, I miss my old version of 'me'. I need to find it back and improve a little bit. For all that I had been through all this time, I learnt that we couldn't trust everyone. Second chance???That's crap. We only can give it to the one who deserve it. Don't give it to someone who confuse with their life and try to use you in order for them being 'normal'. These bunch of people are not deserve your second chance because they themselves couldn't handle their own problems. DON'T GIVE HOPE TO SOMEONE IF YOU ARE NOT ABLE TO BE WITH THAT SOMEONE. Don't even think to test that 'someone' if your intention was only to test your 'market'. You're not gonna happy for sure, trust m

I don't know why I craving like crazy for petai lately. It really difficult to find it here in Ipoh. I love ulam-ulam kampung. I got this from my opah I think because ulam is the one of the must-have-dish during family gathering. For me, I really comfortable to eat petai when I was at home because you know all the smell when you pee and you'll have bad breath smell. But I don't care we can eliminate the problem isn't it??? So make sure if you are a petai lover like me, we have to do something about the smell. Don't be shy with it. 1. brush your teeth after meal 2. Bring along your liquid soap or anything that can eliminate the smell. 3. Always have chewing gum or anything fresh and mint so you will comfortable to talk to people. xoxo, jannahamidon

i don't know why  I feel so sad. The old memory came in my mind. Sometimes you will regret about something but actually everything happen for a reason. It's all Allah's plan anyway. I'm counting for something. Waiting for a miracle to happen? Not anymore because I want to do something better. Have faith in Allah. xoxo jannahamidon

Let's start a new so called normal life. This is random post by me who's currently stress with Mr Exam. I want to talk about normal. Being a normal person is not that simple. We always influenced by others. We always want to be better than others without knowing ourselves better, our abilities, our limitations, our weaknesses. Let's talk about NORMAL. It's normal to have pimple in teen age. It's normal to have a burnt skin because of the sports. It's normal to be a chubby girl  but don't over-chubby okay. It's normal to date people. It's normal to get heartbroken. It's normal to admire someone. It's normal to be over-sensitive on something but remember try to be calm and think the positive side of it. Don't be too emotional with it unless it will ruins your life and relationship with others. It's normal to get angry on something but make sure think before you talk. So, this is the end of my so called annoying 'It's normal&

3 more weeks to go for my final exam (otho and fammed). I don't know why I'm still here on the bed watching movies. Just finish fated to love you korean drama. I suggest you all to watch this movie because the story is so romantic and Jang Na Ra is so cuteeee. I want to watch Grey's anatomy after this and pray hard so that I feel motivated to study. I hope I can stay at home during study week. I don't know why I can focus well while i'm at home rather than staying in the 'stresful' Cyber. I'm just planning but we will see what happen after this. cewahhhh memang balik perak la jawabnya. I pray a lot to Allah. Please bring my focus back. Ameen. xoxo jannahamidon

I always forgot things that I want to blog and came out with a new one. I don't know why Ipoh seem a bit cloudy and same goes with my heart. PMS syndrome (maybe). Sometime we are difficult to understand our own heart. Is it ok if we do this? Is it okay if we want to play hard to get? Are we understand others? It's cliche to say that ignore whatever people talk about you. You're not everyone's cup of tea. But we are human right? We are still thinking about that and sometime it's stressful. This time we have to appreciate the important role of family and closed friend or trusted person. Try to talk to them and amazingly it will make your stress lesser rather than you face it alone. I wonder how some people's life look really happy without having problem. But back to basic as in our religion. We will not find the happiness without feeling grateful for whatever we have. Don't compare yourself with others. Try to look at yours how much love Allah give to you

Betapa seronoknya dapat cuti 3 hari sebab kelas tak ada esok. Memang aku balik Perak la. Tapi yang tak seronoknya semalam drive dekat 6 jam baru sampai. Ni semua sebab jem punya pasal. Dari Putrajaya ke Putra Height ada accident and we all stucked for about one hour jugak. Lepas dekat dua jam aku sampai Kelana Jaya sebab nak ambik adik balik sekali. Stuck lagi kat tol. Menyesal tak topup touch n Go awal-awal. Tula kan dah susah hanya mampu pandang lane smartag laju je. After tol jem lagi. Nasib baik adik ada ajar jalan shortcut so cepat sikit la nak sampai. Masa tu pun dah maghrib. Masa tu aku dah start rasa emergency giler-giler sebab nak pegi toilet. Stop kat petrol pump sebab nak pegi toilet and toilet dia sooooo dirty...Tapi terpaksa eiiiiii.  Pastu stop Rawang, makan, solat and continue drive sampai Perak. Mengantuk dia memang tak tahan sangat-sangat sebaik ada adik teman. Kalau tak aku akan berhenti kat semua RnR untuk hilangkan ngantuk.  Okay sebelum terlupa something

Feeling fresh after taking shower for about 20 minutes, put on necessary things on my face and lotion on my hands (feeling cerita korea). So, I'm ready to start my new post since I didn't post anything for about a month.  I remember when I still a first year meds student (budak hingusan and selekeh), one of my lecturer told us that some students definitely have a medical student syndrome which is unconsciously having paranoid about themselves. For example, they feel like they got GERD with all the burning sensation and other related symptoms that they experienced. But the amazing thing about it is all the symptoms gone after the posting finish. And.... I think I have that syndrome for almost all the posting throughout my clinical years. Let's start with first posting which is internal medicine. Actually my first posting should be community medicine but I didn't want to admit it. So back to the story. I got fever and cough. I really thought I got Tuberculosis

1)People come and go. It doesn't matter because everything happen in your life is an experience for you to be more mature and improving yourself. Everyone can say he/she likes you but the main problem here is how long? Never trust people with excuses because they will spend their time with you if they want to. 2)you're not everyone's cup of tea. Trust yourself use your heart and brain to think carefully. 3)Everybody deserves a second chances but the problem is never give your 100% trust to these people. We don't know their sincerity.  4)Always asking for other people's opinion and thought about your problem. Of course you know yourself well but at least you got different perspective about it. It helps you a lot in solving your problem. Work in team babe! We can't live alone!

This is random post by me. Recently, I started using conditioner for my hair because my friend told me it is very important to make sure your hair got enough nutrition bla bla... But actually I already know that my hair doesn't need any kind of that except for shampoo. It takes longer time for me to find a suitable shampoo until I found Pantene. My hair look better and already ENOUGH NUTRITION and it became worse after I 'burden' it with 'extra nutrition'. So, condolences to my conditioner. Good bye you. It's not because you're terrible but my hair already got enough nutrition. They don't need your help. (just kidding)... xoxoxo jannahamidon

I miss my parents lately because of one issue happen in my life. Nothing important to mention the problem here because it was me who have insecure problem but thanks to that 'someone'. I felt calm already. I called my mother yesterday and her voice sound happy and I know she's okay and healthy. I really worried if the same problem happen into my life again. I don't want any of my family member got sick without telling me anything. Fobia sikit kat situ. Ibu: Anje buat apa sihat? Me: Sihat je ibu dengan ayah sihat ke? Ibu: sihat je semua sikit lagi ayah nak ajak keluar. Nak beli hadiah untuk ibu la tu. Agaknyalah ibu tak tuntut lagi hadiah birthday. Me: Yelatuuuu haha My father was not a person who always showing his 'romantic' or 'caring' in front of people but I know he loves my mother so much. My mother was like a typical mother in this world. Always nagging, not patient, and garang if we did something that she didn't like. So, my father

Orang lain stress buat keje..Aku stres blogging kejap. Rindu giler dekat geng-geng palam especially housemate R3902 and my classmates F1. Zaman foundation zaman yang baru start nak kenal dunia luar. Semua rasa mencabar semua benda rasa nak try. Serius rindu giler dekat housemate palam. Kitorang share macam-macam especially pasal boyfriend. Part boyfriend ni memang paling epic la sebab lastnya takde sape pun yang bertahan and sekarang one of us dah kawen and yang lain semua single mingle. But you know all of us must learn from our past experience. Percayalah jodoh tu sentiasa ada.  Kalau dulu lecturer palam pernah cakap..Ramai korang yang kapel tapi percayalah masuk degree mesti jumpa orang lain. Masa dengar tu tak percaya langsung biasa la jiwa muda selagi tak experience benda tu selagi tu tak percaya but it happen to us. Bila dah start umur 23 and above dah start fikir benda yang paling serabut macam study and dapat ke keje bila dh grad? Bab kawen tu tolak tepi dulu. So. co

I feel that i'm not blogging anything for quiet some time. Family medicine was so hectic..i'm not kidding you guys. This was my second time that I feel useless throughout the posting after O&G. Thanks to Allah we had GP attachment and we got a chance to choose our own private clinic. Guess what?? of course I choose clinic in Ipoh. (kalau boleh nak pilih yang jalan kaki je dari rumah pegi klinik). So, I enjoyed my attachment very well and Alhamdulillah my GP was so kind but don't have many patient. Actually we must pray that all people was in good health but I became evil to see many people got sick for the purpose of my presentation..haha it was really bad..jangan Jannah tak baik.. I got one week holiday guys and I wish I want to study and cover so many things since I feel so useless during percepting session. It was really bad, i'm not kidding. But all the wishes ke laut..I only enjoying myself at the GP. Going to the mall just to eat ice cream or buying cool b

pejam celik pejam celik dah tahun 2016..Macam biasa hidup kita penuh dengan jatuh bangun ibarat roda. Tahun ni ialah tahun yang mana kita kena improve dan reflect balik apa yang dah jadi masa tahun 2015. Sebenarnya aku belajar benda yang sangat-sangat penting iaitu improve dulu relationship dengan Allah. Senang di mulut untuk bercakap and senang tangan nak menaip benda ni tapi semua ni mestilah diamalkan. At least kita cuba sama-sama okay.. Bila kita terasa kita jatuh sangat-sangat cepat-cepat ambik wudhu and sembahyang..Mungkin Allah rindu kat kita sebab tu dia bagi kita ujian yang sangat berat. As for me, dugaan tahun 2015 sangat2 la berat. Aku rasa aku jatuh yang amat sangat. Kat luar nampak kuat padahal kat dalam Allah je yang tau. Pengajarannya ialah tak semua benda kita boleh cerita dekat orang. Kita semua manusia kadang-kadang kita akan jadi bias dan opinion orang lain-lain. Tapi di saat kita rasa macam takde sape tu la sebenarnya Allah nak kita mengadu dekat dia. Sebab Alla

I realised that I didn't post any of my wishlist for 2016. It was because of my end of posting examination which involved two crazy posting and I was like oh man can I do this??. Alhamdulillah my exam already over but I felt anxious with my result since I think that I didn't study much and lack of effort compared to previous exam. So, let's made a throwback of what happen in 2015. I think I had a lot of crying because of so many things that happen in my life especially about my ibu. Ibu was diagnosed with septic shock secondary to peritonitis which was in very critical condition. I could tell you guys how pathetic I am when I was in the hospital. I was crying along the corridor, surau and also in the ICU in front of my mother. I really couldn't accept that my mother would suffering like this! But alhamdulillah all my family and my friends were supportive and after about 3 weeks my mother recovered from the illness and now happily being a part time housewif

Actually I have my EOP a.k.a end of posting examination for my specialty posting and psychiatry posting..Sounds like sikitnya..no need to worry lahh...okay lemme tell you guys that specialty posting consists of 4 sub posting which are ENT (Ear Nose Throat), radiology (all the X-rays and CT scan things), ophntalmology (All about eyes from you conjunctiva to retina) and anaesthesiology (All about anaes and drugs especially in OT)..So, how about now?? Sound ridiculous for only giving us one week to study???mestilah nervousss As for me, this is my first time I studied alone in my own room in my own home sweet home hehe..Some people think that I'm only having fun staying at home and prolonged my holiday without even thinking that I have exam next week..Totally wrong.. I stayed at home because of my mother. Alhamdulillah ibu survived all the difficulties and now in recovery phase..Still need to take antibiotics and her movement is a bit limited and restricted because of operation sit